O Most gracious God, and loving Father, who art about my bed, 1and knowest my down lying, and mine uprising, and art near unto all that call upon thee, in truth and sincerity, I wretched sinner do beseech thee, to look upon me with the eyes of thy mercy, and not to behold me as I am in my self: For then thou shalt see but an unclean and defiled creature, conceived in sin, and living in iniquity: so that I am ashamed to lift up mine eyes to heaven, 23knowing how grievously I have sinned against ⟨p. 406⟩heaven, and before thee: For,4 O Lord, I have transgressed all thy commandments and righteous laws, not only through negligence and infirmity, but oftentimes through wilful presumption, contrary to my knowledge: yea, contrary to the motions of thy holy spirit reclaiming me from them, so that I have wounded my conscience, and grieved thy holy spirit, by whom thou hast sealed me to the day of redemption. 5Thou hast consecrated my soul and body, to be the temples of the holy Ghost: I wretched sinner have defiled both, with all manner of pollution and uncleanness. My eyes in taking pleasure to behold vanity, 6mine ears in ⟨p. 407⟩hearing impure and unchaste speeches,7 my tongue in leasing and evil speaking: my hands are so full of impurity, that I am ashamed to lift them up unto thee: and my feet have carried me after mine own ways:8 my understanding and reasoning which are so quick in all earthly matters, are only blind, and stupid, when I come to meditate or discourse of spiritual and heavenly things: my memory, which should be the treasury of all goodness, is not so apt to remember any thing, as those things which are vile and vain. Yea, Lord, by woeful experience I find, that naturally, all the imaginations of the thoughts of mine heart, 9are only ⟨p. 384⟩evil continually. 10And these my sins are more in number then the hairs which grow upon mine head, and they have grown over me like a loathsome leprosy: that from the crown of my head to the sole of my feet, 11there remains no part which they have not infected. They make me seem vile in mine own eyes;12 how much more abominable must I then appear in thy sight?13 And the custom of sinning hath almost taken away the conscience of sin, & pulled upon me such dullness of sense and hardness of hart;
O Most gracious God, and louing Father, who art about my bed, 1and knowest my down lying, and mine vprising, and art neere vnto all that call vpon thee, in truth and sincerity, I wetched sinner doe beseech thee, to looke vpon me with the eies of thy mercy, and not to behold mee as I am in my selfe: For then thou shalt see but an vncleane and defiled creature, conceiued in sinne, and liuing in iniquity: so that I am ashamed to lift vp mine eies to heauen, 23knowing how grieuously I haue sinned against ⟨p. 406⟩heauen, and before thee: For,4 O Lord, I haue transgressed al thy commandements and righteous lawes, not onely through negligence and infirmity, but oftentimes through wilfull presumption, contrary to my knowledge: yea, contrary to the motions of thy holy spirit reclaiming me from them, so that I haue wounded my conscience, and grieued thy holy spirit, by whom thou hast sealed mee to the day of redemption. 5Thou hast consecrated my soule and body, to be the temples of the holy Ghost: I wretched sinner haue defiled both, vvith all manner of pollution and vncleannesse. My eyes in taking pleasure to behold vanitie, 6mine eares in ⟨p. 407⟩hearing impure and vnchaste speeches,7 my tongue in leasing and euill speaking: my hands are so ful of impuritie, that I am ashamed to lift them vp vnto thee: and my feet haue carried mee after mine owne wayes:8 my vnderstanding and reasoning which are so quicke in all earthly matters, are only blinde, and stupide, when I come to meditate or discourse of spirituall and heauenly things: my memory, which should be the treasurie of all goodnesse, is not so apt to remember any thing, as those things vvhich are vile and vaine. Yea, Lord, by wofull experience I finde, that naturally, all the imaginations of the thoughts of mine heart, 9
- 1Psal. 139.23. Psal. 145.18.
- 2Psal. 51.5. Hezr. 9.6.
- 3Luk. 15.18.
- 4Dan. 9.11.
- 5Ephes. 4.30.
- 6Psal. 119.37.
- 7Isa. 6.5. Isa. 1.15.
- 8Rom. 3.15.16.
- 9Gen. 6.5.
- 10Psal. 40.12.
- 11Isai. 1.6.
- 122 Sam. 5.22.
- 131 Joh. 3.20.1 Ioh. 3.20.