1And lastly (O Lord) where I should have rested fully contented with that portion which thy Majesty thought meetest to bestow upon me in this Pilgrimage: and rejoiced in an others good, as in mine own: Alas my life hath been nothing else but a greedy lusting after this neighbours house, and that neighbours land: yea, secretly wishing such a man dead, that I might have his living or office, coveting rather those things which thou hast bestowed on another, rather then being thankful for that which thou hast given unto my self. Thus I O Lord, ⟨p. 727⟩who am a carnal sinner, 2and sold under sin, have transgressed all thy holy and spiritual commandments from the first to the last, from the greatest unto the least, and here I stand guilty before thy Judgement-seat of all the breaches of all thy laws, and therefore liable to thy Curse, and to all the miseries that Justice can pour forth upon so cursed a creature. And whither shall I go for deliverance from this misery? Angels blush at my rebellion, and will not help me. Men are guilty of the like transgression, and cannot help themselves. Shall I then despair with Cain, or make away my self with Judas? No Lord: ⟨p. 728⟩for that were but to end the miseries of this life, and to begin the endless torments of Hell: I will rather appeal to thy Throne of Grace, 3where Mercy reigns to pardon abounding sins, and out of the depth of my miseries, 4I will cry, with David, for the depth of thy mercies. Though thou shouldest kill me with afflictions; 5yet will I, like Job, put my trust in thee. Though thou shouldest drown me in the Sea of thy displeasure,6 with Jonah, yet will I catch such hold on thy Mercy, that I will be taken up dead, clasping her with both my hands. And though thou shouldest cast me into the bowels of Hell, as Jonah into the Belly of the Whale: ⟨p. 729⟩yet from thence would I cry unto thee; O God the Father of Heaven, O Jesus Christ the Redeemer of the World, O Holy Ghost my Sanctifier, three Persons, and one eternal God, have mercy upon me a miserable sinner. And seeing the goodness of thine own nature first moved thee to send thine only begotten Son, to dye for my sins, that by his death I might be reconciled to thy Majesty:
1And lastly (O Lord) where I should haue rested fully contented vvith that portion which thy Maiestie thought meetest to bestow vpon me in this Pilgrimage: and reioyced in an others good, as in mine owne: Alas my life hath beene nothing else but a greedy lusting after this neighbours house, and that neighbours land: yea, secretly vvishing such a man dead, that I might haue his liuing or office, coueting rather those things which thou hast bestowed on another, rather then being thankefull for that which thou hast giuen vnto my selfe. Thus I O Lord, ⟨p. 727⟩who am a carnall sinner, 2and sold vnder sinne, haue transgressed all thy holy and spiritual commandements from the first to the last, from the greatest vnto the least, and here I stand guiltie before thy Iudgement-seate of all the breaches of all thy lawes, and therefore lyable to thy Curse, and to all the miseries that Iustice can poure forth vpon so cursed a creature. And whither shall I goe for deliuerance from this miserie? Angels blush at my rebellion, and will not helpe mee. Men are guilty of the like transgression, and cannot helpe themselues. Shall I then despaire vvith Caine, or make away my selfe with Iudas? No Lord: ⟨p. 728⟩for that were but to end the miseries of this life, and to beginne the endlesse torments of Hell: I will rather appeale to thy Throane of Grace, 3where Mercy raignes to pardon abounding sinnes, and out of the depth of my miseries, 4I will cry, with Dauid, for the depth of thy mercies. Though thou shouldest kill me with afflictions; 5yet will I, like Iob, put my trust in thee. Though thou shouldest drowne me in the Sea of thy displeasure,6 with Ionas, yet will I catch such hold on thy Mercy, that I will be taken vp dead, clasping her with both my hands. And though thou shouldest cast mee into the bowels of Hell, as Ionas into the Belly of the Whale: ⟨p. 729⟩yet from thence would I cry vnto thee; O God the Father of Heauen, O Iesus Christ the Redeemer of the World, O Holy Ghost my Sanctifier, three Persons, and one eternall God, haue mercy vpon mee a miserable sinner. And seeing the goodnesse of thine owne nature first moued thee to send thine onely begotten Son, to dye for my sinnes, that by his death I might be reconciled to thy Maiestie:
- 1The 10. Commandment. Heb. 13.5. 1 Tim. 6.6. Phil. 4.11.12The 10. Commandement. Heb. 13.5. 1 Tim. 6.6. Phil. 4.11.12
- 2Rom. 7.
- 3Heb. 4.
- 4Psal. 130.1.
- 5Job. 1.12.Iob. 1.12.
- 6Jon. 2.2.Ion. 2.2.
