O Most gracious God, and loving Father,1 who art about my bed, and knowest my down-lying, and mine up-rising, and art near unto all that call upon thee, in truth and sincerity; 2I wretched sinner do beseech thee, to look upon me with the eyes of thy mercy, and not to behold me as I am in my self: For then thou shalt see but an unclean and defiled creature, conceived in sin, and living in iniquity: 3so that I am ashamed to lift up mine eyes to heaven, 4knowing how grievously I have sinned against 5heaven and before thee: For, O Lord, I have transgressed all thy Commandments and righteous Laws, 6not only through negligence and infirmity, but oftentimes through wilful presumption, contrary to my knowledge: yea contrary to the motions of thy Holy spirit reclaiming me from them: so that I have wounded my conscience, and grieved thy Holy Spirit, by whom thou hast sealed me to the day of redemption. 7Thou hast consecrated my soul and body, to be the temples of the Holy Ghost: I wretched sinner have defiled both, with all manner of pollution and uncleanness. My eyes in taking pleasure toa behold vanity; mine ears, in hearing impure and unchaste speeches; myb tongue, in leasing and evil speaking; myc hands are so full of impurity, that I am ashamed to lift them up unto thee; and myd feet have carried me ⟨p. 190⟩after mine own ways; my understanding and reasoning, which are so quick in all earthly matters, are only blind and stupid, when I come to meditate or discourse of spiritual and heavenly things; my memory, which should be the treasury of all goodness, is not so apt to remember any thing, as those things which are vile and vain. Yea Lord, by woeful experience I find that naturally,12 all the imaginations of the thoughts of mine heart are only evil continually. And these my sins are more in number than the hairs upon mine head, 13and they have grown over me like a loathsome leprosy, that from the Crown of my head to the sole of my feet, 14there remains no part which they have not infected. They make me seem vile in mine own eyes: 15how much more abominable must I then appear in thy sight? And the custom of sinning hath almost taken away the conscience of sin, and pulled upon me such dullness of sense, and hardness of heart, that thy judgments denounced against my sins, by the faithful Preachers of thy Word, do not terrify me to return unto thee by unfeigned repentance for them.
O Most gracious God, and loving Father,1 who art about my bed, and knowest my down-lying, and mine up-rising, and art near unto all that call upon thee, in truth and sincerity; 2I wretched sinner do beseech thee, to look upon me with the eyes of thy mercy, and not to behold me as I am in my self: For then thou shalt see but an unclean and defiled creature, conceived in sin, and living in iniquity: 3so that I am ashamed to lift up mine eyes to heaven, 4knowing how grievously I have sinned against 5heaven and before thee: For, O Lord, I have transgressed all thy Commandments and righteous Laws, 6not only through negligence and infirmity, but oftentimes through willful presumption, contrary to my knowledge: yea contrary to the motions of thy Holy spirit reclaiming me from them: so that I have wounded my conscience, and grieved thy Holy Spirit, by whom thou hast sealed me to the day of redemption. 7Thou hast consecrated my soul and body, to be the temples of the Holy Ghost: I wretched sinner have defiled both, with all manner of pollution and uncleanness. My eyes in taking pleasure toa behold vanity; mine ears, in hearing impure and unchaste speeches; myb tongue, in leasing and evil speaking; myc hands are so full of impurity, that I am ashamed to lift them up unto thee; and myd feet have carried me ⟨p. 190⟩after mine own ways; my understanding and reasoning, which are so quick in all earthly matters, are only blind and stupid, when I come to meditate or discourse of spiritual and heavenly things; my memory, which should be the treasury of all goodness, is not so apt to remember any thing, as those things which are vile and vain. Yea Lord, by woful experience I find that naturally,
- 1Psal. 139. 2, 3.
- 2Psal. 145. 18.
- 3Psal. 51. 5.
- 4Luk. 18. 13.
- 5Luk. 15. 18.
- 6Dan. 9. 11.
- 7Eph. 4. 30.
- aPsal. 11•. 3•.
- bIsa. 6. 5.
- cIsa. 1. 15.
- dRom. 3. 15, 16.
- 12Gen. 6. 5,
- 13Psal. 40. 12.
- 14Isaiah 1. 6.
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