that ever I should deny him who has brought me out of a state of death and wrath, into a state of life and love; that ever I should deny him that has been the best, the wisest, the holiest, the tenderest, the faithfullest, and the noblest Master that ever man served. Ah, wretch that I am! he forewarned me of this sin before-hand, that I might be not only cautioned but armed against it, and yet I denied him; I promised him beforehand, that I would never deny him, that I would never forsake him, that I would never turn my back upon him, and yet like a base coward, I have denied the captain of my salvation; yea, this very night, and no longer ago, did I say again and again, that I would not deny him, and yet now, even now, I have most shamefully denied him; yea, I told him, that though all others, should deny him, yet would not I deny him, and yet in all the world there is not such another to be found, that has so sadly, so desperately denied him, as I have denied him, and that before a silly Maid; nay, more beast that I am to my denying of him. I have added a most incredible lye, saying, I know not the man, when there was not a man in all the world that I was so well acquainted with as I was with Christ, feeding constantly at his table,1 and drinking constantly of his cup, and living constantly upon his purse, and waiting constantly upon his person, and being a constant eye-witness of all the famous miracles that were wrought by him; nay, yet more monster that I am, I did not only lye, but I also bound that lye with an hideous Oath, I ⟨p. 244⟩did not only say that I knew not the man, but I also swore I knew not the man; nay, yet more than all this, I did not only basely deny him, I did not only tell an incredible lye against my own light and conscience, I did not only bind a fearful lye with a hideous oath, but I also fell a cursing and damning of my self, for so much the Greek word [Greek or Hebrew] imports; I wished that the curse, the wrath or vengeance of God might fall upon me if I knew the man, I wished my self separated from the presence and glory of God if I knew the man: And woe and alas to me, all this I did when my Lord and Master was near me, yea when he was upon his trial;
that ever I should deny him who has brought me out of a state of death and wrath, into a state of life and love; that ever I should deny him that has been the best, the wisest, the holiest, the tenderest, the faithfullest, and the noblest Master that ever man served. Ah, wretch that I am! he forewarned me of this sin before-hand, that I might be not only cautioned but armed against it, and yet I denied him; I promised him beforehand, that I would never deny him, that I would never forsake him, that I would never turn my back upon him, and yet like a base coward, I have denied the captain of my salvation; yea, this very night, and no longer ago, did I say again and again, that I would not deny him, and yet now, even now, I have most shamefully denied him; yea, I told him, that though all others, should deny him, yet would not I deny him, and yet in all the world there is not such another to be found, that has so sadly, so desperately denied him, as I have denied him, and that before a silly Maid; nay, more beast that I am to my denying of him. I have added a most incredible lye, saying, I know not the man, when there was not a man in all the world that I was so well acquainted with as I was with Christ, feeding constantly at his table,1 and drinking constantly of his cup, and living constantly upon his purse, and waiting constantly upon his person, and being a constant eye-witness of all the famous miracles that were wrought by him; nay, yet more monster that I am, I did not only lye, but I also bound that lye with an hideous Oath, I ⟨p. 244⟩did not only say that I knew not the man, but I also swore I knew not the man; nay, yet more than all this, I did not only basely deny him, I did not only tell an incredible lye against my own light and conscience, I did not only bind a fearful lye with a hideous oath, but I also fell a cursing and damning of my self, for so much the Greek word 〈non-Latin alphabet〉 imports; I wisht that the curse, the wrath or vengeance of God might fall upon me if I knew the man, I wisht my self separated from the presence and glory of God if I knew the man: And wo and alas to me, all this I did when my Lord and Master was neer me, yea when he was upon his trial;
- 1There was scarce any Jew, which knew not Christ by sight, he being very famous for the many miracles that were wrote by him.