4. When he had thus consummated his wickedness, though admonished by our Saviour, though plainly told, He was the man, Matth. 16.25. Then in stead of a godly repentance, he falls into a dreadful despair of Gods mercy, and Christs love. This was to put a talent of lead upon the Ephah, as the Prophet Zechariah expresseth it, Zach. 5.8. This despair was greater then all his former sins, and observe how that all the while Judas was plotting and contriving his wickedness, his conscience never troubleth him, he could live a long time in thieving and stealing, and commit abominable sins, and his heart never trembles; Though he heard our Saviour say, Woe be to him that should betray him, it had been better he had never been born, yet he can boldly go on; yea, though Judas was in the head of a band of men to take Christ; John 18.3, 5, 6. and as soon as Christ said, I am he, such glory and terror came from him, that immediately they fell to the ground, yet at this terrible passage his conscience doth not work; but at last, his conscience biteth like an Adder, and stings like a Serpent. Hearken to this all you, who commit sin with jollity and security, you care not, you fear not, what the Ministers of God threaten you with, you can eat and drink, and rise up to play, so could Judas for a while, but at last, he crieth out, I have sinned in betraying the innocent blood. Oh take heed, as jolly and as bold as thou art for the present, lest in this life, or to come, thou criest out, Oh I have sinned, I have damned my Soul, yea I have betrayed Christ! For every wicked man is a Judas; Whosoever will part with Christ for his sins, for the world, he is a Judas; This son of perdition doth thus roar within, that he hath no comfort, no quietness, then first he goeth to the chief Priests, crieth out of his sin, and throweth them the thirty pieces again. Here you see, A man may cry out and weep for his sins, and make some satisfaction, and yet not for all that truly repent; Even this son of perdition bewaileth his sins, and crieth out of them. Further see what little good this thirty pieces did him; he that studied and plotted to betray his Master to have them, he cannot keep them, he vomitteth them up. Thus it will be with every wicked man, that to get dishonest gain, lieth, stealeth, forsweareth himself:
4. When he had thus consummated his wickednesse, though admonished by our Saviour, though plainly told, He was the man, Matth. 16.25. Then in stead of a godly repentance, he fals into a dreadfull despair of Gods mercy, and Christs love. This was to put a talent of lead upon the Ephah, as the Prophet Zachary expresseth it, Zach. 5.8. This despair was greater then all his former sinnes, and observe how that all the while Judas was plotting and contriving his wickedness, his conscience never troubleth him, he could live a long time in thieving and stealing, and commit abominable sins, and his heart never trembles; Though he heard our Saviour say, Woe be to him that should betray him, it had been better he had never been born, yet he can boldly go on; yea, though Judas was in the head of a band of men to take Christ; John 18.3, 5, 6. and as soon as Christ said, I am he, such glory and terrour came from him, that immediatly they fell to the ground, yet at this terrible passage his conscience doth not work; but at last, his conscience biteth like an Adder, and stings like a Serpent. Hearken to this all you, who commit sin with jollity and security, you care not, you fear not, what the Ministers of God threaten you with, you can eat and drink, and rise up to play, so could Judas for a while, but at last, he crieth out, I have sinned in betraying the innocent bloud. Oh take heed, as jolly and as bold as thou art for the present, lest in this life, or to come, thou criest out, Oh I have sinned, I have damned my Soul, yea I have betrayed Christ! For every wicked man is a Judas; Whosoever will part with Christ for his sinnes, for the world, he is a Judas; This sonne of perdition doth thus roar within, that he hath no comfort, no quietnesse, then first he goeth to the chief Priests, crieth out of his sin, and throweth them the thirty pieces again. Here you see, A man may cry out and weep for his sins, and make some satisfaction, and yet not for all that truly repent; Even this son of perdition bewaileth his sins, and crieth out of them. Further see what little good this thirty pieces did him; he that studied and plotted to betray his Master to have them, he cannot keep them, he vomitteth them up. Thus it will be with every wicked man, that to get dishonest gain, lieth, stealeth, forsweareth himself:
