An exposition with practical observations continued upon the eighth, ninth and tenth chapters of…An exposition with practicall observations continued upon the eighth, ninth and tenth chapters of…

Secondly, Some wicked men are wearied of their lives by the horror of their consciences. A hell within, makes the world without a hell too. They who have a sight of eternal death (as the wages of sin) without the sight of a remedy may soon be weary of a temporal life. As much peace of conscience and soul joy in believing, makes some of the Saints wish themselves out of the body; so also doth trouble of conscience, and grief of soul make many of the wicked. A man who is not at all weary of committing sin may be weary of his life, because he hath committed it. And he, who was never troubled that his wickedness is as an offence against God, may feel his wickedness extremely offensive against himself. To such a soul the evil of sin is so great an evil of punishment, that he is ready to cry out with ⟨p. 420⟩Cain, My punishment is greater then I can bear. Yea, what his guilty conscience feared, comes to be the desire of many under the same guilt, That every one that findeth them would slay them: And some are so weary of their lives at the sight of sin, that they make away their lives themselves, hoping to get out of the sight of sin. There are sins which cry to God for vengeance, and some cry to the sinner himself for vengeance. This cry was so loud and forcible in the ears of Judas, that it caused him to go away and hang himself. And what made Ahithophel weary of his life, but his wickedness? The rejecting of his counsel was not so much the reason of it, as the sinfulness of his counsel: A good man may be troubled at others, when his good counsel is not accepted, but he grows not unacceptable to himself; nay, he is well-pleased that he hath given honest counsel, though none will take it, though all are displeased at it. But they who aim not at the pleasing of God in what they do, think themselves undone (and die they will) if they please not men.

Secondly, Some wicked men are wearied of their lives by the horrour of their consciences. A hell within, makes the world without a hell too. They who have a sight of eternall death (as the wages of sin) without the sight of a remedy may soon be weary of a temporall life. As much peace of conscience and soul joy in believing, makes some of the Saints wish themselves out of the body; so also doth trouble of conscience, and grief of soul make many of the wicked. A man who is not at all weary of committing sin may be weary of his life, because he hath committed it. And he, who was never troubled that his wickednesse is as an offence against God, may feel his wickednesse extremely offensive against himself. To such a soul the evil of sinne is so great an evil of punishment, that he is ready to cry out with