A further account of the progress of the Gospel amongst the Indians in New…

Waban.

First, I Confess, that before I prayed, it was hard to love another fashion then my old course: my Parents were sinners, and in my Mothers belly I was in sin: after I was born, the same way of sin I followed. When I was a child I grew up in sin, and I did not know that they were sins, but now of late I know them; in my youth also, in the same sins I lived, and did not know them to be so, but by the remembrance of my ways, I do remember my sins, and hereby I am made to understand, that my Parents taught me to love sin. And after they were dead, others taught me to sin: I liked to be taught to commit sin; those that taught me, said to me, Choose to be a Pauwau: they said, If you be a Pauwau, you may make others to live; and if you he a Pauwau, God will bless you, and make you rich, and a man like God. Then I desired so to do: also I always desired other sins, for my heart did desire to grow up in those sins, always lust I desired, always my heart laboured and desired to know how to add to, and to multiply my sins. Thus it came to pass that I knew abundance ⟨p. 72⟩of sins, before I knew my ways were sin. When the English came hither, they said, when I came to the English houses, that I loved the Devil: then I was very angry, and my words were, You know the Devil: I do not know the Devil, and presently I would go out of the house: Sometime they spake meekly to me, and would say, God is in heaven, and he is a good God: yet I regarded not these words, but strongly I loved my sins: it was hard for me to believe what the English said: after many years, I sometime believed a word, but I left not my sin. When I began to understand more, I began to doubt, but I desired not Conversion from sin. Afterward, when the English taught me, I would sit still, because they would give me good victuals; then I sometimes thought, certainly God is in heaven: then my thoughts said, It may be I have sinned.

First, I Confess, that before I prayed, it was hard to love another fashion then my old course: my Parents were sinners, and in my Mothers belly I was in sin: after I was born, the same way of sin I followed. When I was a child I grew up in sin, and I did not know that they were sins, but now of late I know them; in my youth also, in the same sins I lived, and did not know them to be so, but by the remebrance of my waies, I do remember my sins, and hereby I am made to understand, that my Parents taught me to love sin. And after they were dead, others taught me to sin: I liked to be taught to commit sin; those that taught me, said to me, Choose to be a Pauwau: they said, If you be a Pauwau, you may make others to live; and if you he a Pauwau, God will blesse you, and make you rich, and a man like God. Then I desired so to do: also I alwaies desited other sins, for my heart did desire to grow up in those sins, alwaies lust I desired, alwaies my heart labored and desired to know how to adde to, and to multiply my sins. Thus it came to pass that I knew abundance