For that reason I did go, but desired not to learn to pray: all these things were vain. When we came to Roxbury, I said, I desired to learn Smithery: But my Master said, I may not teach him my Trade, lest Indians learn to make Locks and Guns. Then I would not dwell with him, and thought to cast off praying, and thought I would forsake my brothers. My brother persuaded me to dwell one year there, but I would not: yet at last I did dwell there one year, and went to meeting, but in vain, for I understood not one word. After that year, I returned to Noonantam, and then I heard that God made all the world, but yet I did not pray to God one jot, but still sinned, and especially the sin of Lust, & I made light of any sin. I heard, and understood the Commands of God, Thou shalt not murder, commit adultery, steal, bear false witness, covet; and that made me afraid to commit sin afore man, lest I should be punished or put to death, but I feared not God. After I heard the Minister ask, Who made you? A. God: and Who redeemed you? A. Christ: and Who must sanctify you? The holy Ghost, and that God made Heaven, Earth, Sea, &c. then I a little considered of God, who made all this world, and then I was afraid. I saw that no man could make these things, and that therefore we ⟨p. 12⟩must pray to God, Then my heart said, Assuredly it is so; God made all things, and made me, and I must pray to him: After this, my brothers were sick, and I prayed God, Oh that they may live! and then I heard, that now God trieth me whether I will pray or no. I confess I have done many sins, especially lust, though I had not been a Murderer, or the like. But then my brothers and kindred dyed: then my heart said, Sure it's a vain thing to pray to God; for I prayed, yet my friends dye• therefore I will run wild, and did cast off praying, I did not pray morning and night, and at meat, only on the Sabbath day I came to meeting, but I cared not for hearing, nor did I believe any thing I heard, but I still lived in sin, and my heart said, I will run away; for here we are hindered from sin, in other places I may freely sin. Then my brothers which lived were troubled for me. Then I said I will abide with my brothers, because I love them, but not because I would pray.
For that reason I did go, but desired not to learn to pray: all these things were vain. When we came to Roxbury, I said, I desired to learn Smithery: But my Master said, I may not teach him my Trade, lest Indians learn to make Locks and Guns. Then I would not dwell with him, and thought to cast off praying, and thought I would forsake my brothers. My brother perswaded mee to dwell one year there, but I would not: yet at last I did dwell there one year, and went to meeting, but in vain, for I understood not one word. After that year, I returned to Noonantam, and then I heard that God made all the world, but yet I did not pray to God one jot, but still sinned, and especially the sin of Lust, & I made light of any sin. I heard, and understood the Commands of God, Thou shalt not murder, commit adultery, steal, bear false witness, covet; and that made me afraid to commit sin afore man, lest I should be punished or put to death, but I feared not God. After I heard the Minister ask, Who made you? A. God: and Who redeemed you? A. Christ: and Who must sanctifie you? The holy Ghost, and that God made Heaven, Earth, Sea, &c. then I a little considered of God, who made all this world, and then I was afraid. I saw that no man could make these things, and that therefore we
