I confess, that in my mothers belly I was defiled in sin: my father and mother prayed to many gods, and I heard them when they did so; and I did so too, because my parents did so: and in my childhood, (afore I could act sin) I did delight in it, as dancing and Pawwaug: and when they did so, they prayed to many gods, as Beasts, Birds, Earth, Sea, Trees, &c. After I was born, I did all such things. I loved lust when I was ⟨p. 10⟩a youth, though I did act these lusts but a little. But when I had a little begun, my heart did very much desire more to do such sins: I saw the English keep Sabbath; I cared not, but played, and catched birds, or any thing: yet when I saw Englishmen, I ran away, on the Sabbath day, because they should not see me. As yet I knew not of great sins, as Murder, Adultery: then some Indians said we must pray to God. When I was in English houses, I saw them pray, and I thought it a vain work. They said there was but one God; I thought, nay, there be many Gods. When Indians said, We will pray, my heart said, No; I will not so long as I live. Yet I heard more and more of praying to God, and that my brothers prayed to God; but my heart said, Praying to God is vain. After I heard Waban did pray, and my brothers, Wompo•as, and Toteswo•mp; yet my heart said, No: I am well enough. I have not so sinned as other men, I am no Murderer, Adulterer, &c. Then I ran away; yet I was not much troubled, because my brothers prayed. A little after I came, and my brother said to me; I pray you pray to God. I answered him not, but my heart said, No: yet I was troubled, because I heard my brothers. I thought, if any should kill my brothers, I would kill him: if any Wars were, I would go with my brothers; only I thought of my love to my brothers: and then that, if my brother make War, I would go with him, to kill men▪ Now he prays, shall not I go with my broth•••• […] my brothers love me, and they both pray to God, […] should not I? They prayed morning and […] they eat, and on Sabbath days, then I thought I would do so: but ⟨p. 11⟩it was not for love of God, or fear of God, but because I loved my brothers. Again, when I came to Noonantam▪ I heard the Minister preach, and I desired to hear what he […] taught, but I understood not, […], because I understood stood […] to hear, I heard some youths […] Roxbury. My brother said to me. Go you, because you may learn Smithery:
I confesse, that in my mothers belly I was defiled in sin: my father and mother prayed to many gods, and I heard them when they did so; and I did so too, because my parents did so: and in my childhood, (afore I could act sin) I did delight in it, as dancing and Pawwaug: and when they did so, they prayed to many gods, as Beasts, Birds, Earth, Sea, Trees, &c. After I was born, I did all such things. I loved lust when I was ⟨p. 10⟩a youth, though I did act these lusts but a little. But when I had a little begun, my heart did very much desire more to do such sins: I saw the English keep Sabbath; I cared not, but played, and catch't birds, or any thing: yet when I saw Englishmen, I ran away, on the Sabbath day, because they should not see mee. As yet I knew not of great sins, as Murder, Adultery: then some Indians said we must pray to God. When I was in English houses, I saw them pray, and I thought it a vain work. They said there was but one God; I thought, nay, there be many Gods. When Indians said, Wee will pray, my heart said, No; I will not so long as I live. Yet I heard more and more of praying to God, and that my brothers prayed to God; but my heart said, Praying to God is vain. After I heard Waban did pray, and my brothers, Wompo•as, and Toteswo•mp; yet my heart said, No: I am well enough. I have not so sinned as other men, I am no Murderer, Adulterer, &c. Then I ran away; yet I was not much troubled, because my brothers prayed. A little after I came, and my brother said to mee; I pray you pray to God. I answered him not, but my heart said, No: yet I was troubled, because I heard my brothers. I thought, if any should kill my brothers, I would kill him: if any Warrs were, I would go with my brothers; only I thought of my love to my brothers: and then that, if my brother make Warr, I would go with him, to kill men▪ Now he prayes, shall not I go with my broth•••• 〈…〉 my brothers love me, and they both pray to God, 〈…〉 should not I? They prayed morning and 〈…〉 they eat, and on Sabbath dayes, then I thought I would do so: but ⟨p. 11⟩it was not for love of God, or fear of God, but because I loved my brothers. Again, when I came to Noonantam▪ I heard the Minister preach, and I desired to hear what he 〈…〉 taught, but I understood not, 〈…〉, because I understood stood to hear, I heard some youths Roxbury. My brother said to me. Go you, because you may learn Smithery:
