God's call to England, for thankfulness after gracious deliverances

5. Destruction after Deliverance will be exceedingly aggravated by that self-confounding desperation that will be in our Souls, when God shall come out against us to vindicate the quarrel of abused mercies, to avenge the contempt of former deliverances. Then we shall not only have God against us, but Conscience also will direfully torment us: the reflecting on former deliverances, will cause as great terror as present dangers. The very thoughts of contemned deliverances, will damp and destroy the confidence of the Soul in renewed Miseries. How can a man lift up his face before God to desire a mercy, that hath turned his back upon God when he obtained a mercy? ⟨p. 88⟩How can he go to God for fresh supplies of Mercy, who getting a mercy, hath gone away from God? When God hath lifted thee up from a low condition, and thou hast gone on in a wicked life, with what face canst thou look upon God again? Canst expect a good look, when thou lookest to him? What canst expect but a denial from him, when thou hast denied obedience to him? Oh how will Conscience fly on thy face, and check thy Soul! Remember when you were in distress before, thou didst cry to God, and he delivered thee; but thou never didst love him the more, serve him the better for it. Then wilt thou imagine with thy self, Oh how can I go to God again! How can I think he will try me with further Mercies, who have been so unfaithful under those I received? How can I expect he will be prevailed with to prolong my Life, when I have heaped up provocations, after his former prolongations of it? Oh what heart-faintings and failings will a sense of despised Mercy produce! What a Hell of Misery will this be to all thy Torments, that thou durst not approach to God? Will not inward troubles be a dreadful increase of distress ⟨p. 89⟩in times of Judgment? And what inward trouble more heavy than this, to find our hearts condemning of us, and to be clogged with the sense of abused Mercies? Wilt thou not fear God will tell thee, thy Prayer is an abomination? Wilt not dread lest he say, as Jephthah to the Elders of Gilead, after they had expelled him, Judg. 11.7. Are ye now come unto me, when ye are in distress? What, are you so impudent after all your unkindness to me, to seek kindness from me? What, do ye think I will shelter such enemies as you? Will not God say thus to us, when fleeing to him in distress?