The application of redemption

This light so received the understanding being overpowered §4with it and acted by it acts also in the virtue thereof, and so the sinner may be said […] to see and understand, for he doth so, but in a right order and after a right manner conceived. In a right order, for (as before) of himself he had an Impotency unto this yea an incapability of this spiritual light, before he was forced from the holds of his carnal reason and made sit to receive it. In a right manner: The understanding being acted ⟨p. 52⟩and moved by the power of this light doth move again so that the action […] not so much from any habitual principle of grace, whereof a man hath the free use and command at his own pleasure, and so doth act or not act by it as he will: for so experience tells us it is not, The sinner at first would not see his sins were it in his power and might he have his own mind, he would have the ghastly visage of them gone out of his sight. Nay he useth all the ways and contrives all the means he can, that he might put them out of his thoughts, that they might not come into his consideration or remembrance, It's against the heart and hair, utterly against his will, that he cannot get off it; which argues that he acts not so much here, as a cause by Counsel, out of his own choice and habitual disposition whereof he hath the command, but merely as he is acted; and after when the spirit withdraws, he cannot so see them though he would, as that phrase Gal. 4. 9. After the have known God or rather are known of God. It's not so much from our own ability we have from within that we do it, but because he looked upon us we look back again upon him. As a looking Glass reflects the light not from any light it hath of it's own, but because the light of the Sun falls upon it, so that it's true to say, the light is reflected by it rather than it reflects the light. For because the light […] reflect […] it comes to be reflected. So Job Complained. Job. 13. 26. Thou makest me to possess the sins of my Youth. So David, Psal. 77. 4. Thou keepest mine eyes waking.

This light so received the vnderstanding being overpowred