The application of redemption

Thou yet replyest, that which ads to the heinousness¹ of my evil is this, these loathsome distempers have not been harboured in mine own breast only, confined in mine own bosom, which yet had been too much, but they have broken out into the most fierce and professed rebellion and that in the highest degree. I have been a professed opposer of the gospel and the power thereof, an open Rabshekah, a Ringleader and Encourager, to such that would revile and reproach the righteous and good ways of Gods grace, a jeering Ishmaelite, of such as with […] of Conscience had care to walk therein, and have resolved and attempted also even with an impudent face and a brazen forehead to outbrave the authority of the truth, and made it matter of scorn to drop and give in to the most dreadful threatenings, that could be denounced out of the word, I have trampled all the entreaties of the Lord and tender offers of mercy under feet, that when I have called over my course, and viewed my carriage in cold blood I have wondered that the Lord hath not made me a spectacle of his displeasure, before I departed out of the place, that the very earth did not open and swallow me quick as Corah […] and Abiram. So that God cannot be God unless he do avenge himself and pluck the praise of his justice […] the heart blood of such a wretch, nay he should be accessory to the dishonour of his own name if he should show mercy to such who openly, impudently in a hellish haughtiness of heart have trampled his mercy under their feet.

Thou yet replyest, that which ads to the hainousness¹ of my evil is this, these loathsom distempers have not been harboured in mine own breast onely, confined in mine own bosom, which yet had been too much, but they have broken out into the most sierce and professed rebellion and that in the highest degree. I have been a professed opposer of the gospel and the power thereof, an open Rabshekah, a Ringleader and Encourager, to such that would revile and reproach the righteous and good wayes of Gods grace, a jearing Ishmaelite, of such as with 〈…〉 of Conscience had care to walk therein, and have resolved and attempted also even with an impudent face and a brazen forehead to outbrave the authority of the truth, and made it matter of scorn to drop and give in to the most dreadful threatnings, that could be denounced out of the word, I have trampled al the entreaties of the Lord and tender offers of mercy under feet, that when I have called over my course, and viewed my carriage in cold blood I have wondred that the Lord hath not made me a spectacle of his displeasure, before I departed out of the place, that the very earth did not open and swallow me quick as Corah and Abiram. So that God cannot be God unless he do avenge himself and pluck the praise of his justice the heart blood of such a wretch, nay he should be accessory to the dishonor of his own name if he should shew mercy to such who openly, impudently in a hellish haughtiness of heart have trampled his mercy under their feet.