He is content with this, though he want all the rest, because he prizeth this more than all. Skin for Skin, ⟨p. 612⟩and all that a man hath, will he give for his life; &c life and all for the Salvation of his soul. For sin now he […] it, now he hath found it to be more bitter than death; and1 therefore to be saved from it, he judgeth, and that truly, to be better than life it self: willing not only these things should not be, but that himself should not be, that he might not be sinful: Let the Lord take all away, yea life and all, only take away my sin, and it sufficeth; he counts it the best day that ever yet dawned, the best news that ever came to his distressed Conscience, if he can gain any assurance, get any evidence, but one good look from Heaven, a smile of Gods face and […], that the sins he hath seen, he shall never see them more; the corruptions that have […] and plagued him in his daily Conversation, indisposed him to do the Duties God required, and unfitted him for the […] Christ hath purchased, God hath tendered to him in his holy Word: That pride that […], those passions, that perverseness, and self-willy waywardness of heart that hath been the plague-sore of his soul, have interrupted the comfort of his heart, peace of his Conscience, communion with his God. The very possibility and expectation that the Lord may save him from the guilt and power of those prevailing distempers, supports his Spirit. But if he can but live to see the day that the thing is done, he desires to live no longer: Lord, let thy Servant […] […], since mine eyes have seen thy […] 2. 29, 30. Since thou hast […] […] […] lusts, mighty stiffness […] […] […] all Convictions, though […] […]; gainsay all Arguments, though never so […]; slight all Directions though never […] evident, mighty self-confidence, and hellish haughtiness of Spirit, whereby I could swell above man and means, and God himself: Let thy Servant depart in peace; This Peace, let it never be interrupted; this saving power of thy spirit never weakened, never enfeebled more. Let me lose ⟨p. 613⟩my life with the […], let me die that they may never live more. And therefore the distressed Christian sees not the meanest Christian in the […] miserable condition, but he prefers him above all the […] on Earth, and wisheth himself in his place.
He is content with this, though he want all the rest, because he prizeth this more than all. Skin for Skin, ⟨p. 612⟩and al that a man hath, wil he give for his life; &c life and al for the Salvation of his soul. For sin now he 〈…〉 it, now he hath found it to be more bitter than death; and1 therefore to be saved from it, he judgeth, and that truly, to be better than life it self: willing not only these things should not be, but that himself should not be, that he might not be sinful: Let the Lord take all away, yea life and all, only take away my sin, and it sufficeth; he counts it the best day that ever yet dawned, the best news that ever came to his distressed Conscience, if he can gain any assurance, get any evidence, but one good look from Heaven, a smile of Gods face and 〈…〉, that the sins he hath seen, he shal never see them more; the corruptions that have 〈…〉 and plagued him in his dayly Conversation, indisposed him to do the Duties God required, and unfitted him for the 〈…〉 Christ hath purchased, God hath tendered to him in his holy Word: That pride that 〈…〉, those passions, that perversness, and self-willy waywardness of heart that hath been the plague-sore of his soul, have interrupted the comfort of his heart, peace of his Conscience, communion with his God. The very possibility and expectation that the Lord may save him from the guilt and power of those prevailing distempers, supports his Spirit. But if he can but live to see the day that the thing is done, he desires to live no longer: Lord, let thy Servant 〈…〉 〈…〉, since mine eyes have seen thy 〈…〉 2. 29, 30. Since thou hast 〈…〉 〈…〉 〈…〉 lusts, mighty stifness 〈…〉 〈…〉 〈…〉 al Convictions, though 〈…〉 〈…〉; gainsay al Arguments, though never so 〈…〉; slight al Directions though never 〈…〉 evident, mighty self-considence, and hellish haughtiness of Spirit, whereby I could swel above man and means, and God himself: Let thy Servant depart in peace; This Peace, let it never be interrupted; this saving power of thy spirit never weakened, never enfeebled more. Let me lose
- 1Eccles. 7. 26.