he is ready to […] […] frame of […], as […] were wrought […] […] heart, that so he […] dissolve, […] […] and undo the web and work of […], and therefore he will tell you, my […] you […], and the world ⟨p. 638⟩knows, it hath been scandalous my carriage loathsome, Oh but my heart in that sin was worse than my carriage, the pride and malice, perverseness and […] of mine own heart carried me by main force against many checks of my Conscience and in ward misguidings to that practice to serve mine own distempered lusts, and when it was done, and discerned to be scandalous, the invincible […] of mine own heart would not suffer me to stoop to the evidence of the truth, but I set carnal reason on work, that since I could not deny it were done, yet I might put colour, construction, some meaning and interpretation upon it, that it might appear to be done lawfully, at the utmost that it was only a mistake and out of ignorance, which the most able and exact is incident unto. And all this was with reluctance and against mine own […]: therefore if I found any that were easy and favourable and were ready to be carried away with some […] appearances, to those I often repaired, to them I complained and professed my simplicity, and yet willingness to see, that so I might screw my self into their affections to pity me, and so to be unwilling to hear any thing against my person or cause and […] the man speaks honestly and means plainly, I wish there may be no prejudice and then sat I in counsel with my own corrupt heart, and mind, how to carry the frame of the business in the fairest pretence; I plotted how I might make an escape, and wind away from such evidences and expressions which pinched most narrowly, and there I would put in some word, or else […] they were spoken to some other end, or start up some new occasion to […] the discourse another way, and to another thing, and made them loose the pursuit of that which indeed pinched, and thus I committed many evils in the defending of one, and broke many rules under pretence of making up one breach; but from these wretched grounds, to these wicked ends in this disorderly manner by a plotted kind ⟨p. 639⟩of studied villainy, I have wronged God, the truth, my profession, my […], mine own soul, this is my wretched disposition I would see and say the worst of it &c.
he is ready to 〈…〉 〈…〉 frame of 〈…〉, as 〈…〉 were wrought 〈…〉 〈…〉 heart, that so he 〈…〉 dissolve, 〈…〉 〈…〉 and undo the web and work of 〈…〉, and therefore he wil tel you, my 〈…〉 you 〈…〉, and the world ⟨p. 638⟩knowes, it hath been scandalous my carriage loathsom, Oh but my heart in that sin was worse than my carriage, the pride and malice, perversness and 〈…〉 of mine own heart carried me by main force against many checks of my Conscience and in ward misguidings to that practice to serve mine own distempered lusts, and when it was done, and discerned to be scandalous, the invincible 〈…〉 of mine own heart would not suffer me to stoop to the evidence of the truth, but I set carnal reason on work, that since I could not deny it were done, yet I might put color, construction, some meaning and interpretation upon it, that it might appear to be done lawfully, at the utmost that it was onely a mistake and out of ignorance, which the most able and exact is incident unto. And al this was with reluctance and against mine own 〈…〉: therefore if I found any that were easy and favorable and were ready to be carryed away with some 〈…〉 appearances, to those I often repayred, to them I complained and professed my simplicity, and yet willingness to see, that so I might screw my self into their affections to pity me, and so to be unwilling to hear any thing against my person or cause and 〈…〉 the man speaks honestly and means plainly, I wish there may be no prejudice and then sat I in counsel with my own corrupt heart, and mind, how to carry the frame of the buisiness in the fayrest pretence; I plotted how I might make an escape, and wind away from such evidences and expressions which pinched most narrowly, and there I would put in some word, or else 〈…〉 they were spoken to some other end, or start up some new occasson to 〈…〉 the discourse another way, and to another thing, and made them loose the pursuit of that which indeed pinched, and thus I committed many evils in the defending of one, and broke many rules under prtence of making up one breach; but from these wretched grounds, to these wicked ends in this disorderly manner by a plotted kind ⟨p. 639⟩of studied villany, I have wronged God, the truth, my profession, my 〈…〉, mine own soul, this is my wretched disposition I would see and say the worst of it &c.
