7. Common Illuminations are a Man's Torment and Affliction, and fain he would be eased and freed of them, and of the smart thereby; but the special ones tend to make a Man fear that he is not troubled enough, he would be searched thoroughly: Search me, 1and know my Heart; try me, and know my Thoughts; see if there be any evil Way in me. O lance my Soul, Lord lay open my Sore, let me not be slightly healed: The one would fain shake the Trouble off, he thinks it is enough, nay, too much; the other would have it lie faster on: O let not my Sore be skinned over. The Devils cried, Why dost thou torment us before the Time? So unsound Persons would not be tormented; but Conscience hath got hold of them, and they cannot get out of its Hand. But one truly enlightened, saith, with David, I will be sorry for my Sin; I choose it, I desire it: The one desires to be freed from the Effects of Sin, from the Pain and Punishment thereof; but the other cries out to be delivered from the Sin, which is the Cause of all Pain and Punishment: The one is like the Swine, who likes not the Whip, yet loves the Mire; they like not the Lash of the Law, but hate to come under the Yoke of the Gospel: The one cries out for a Plaster to ease his Conscience, may be he is willing to let some Boughs and Twigs be lopped off; but the other would have the Axe laid to the Root of the Tree; he would have the Body of Sin, as well as the Branches, to be destroyed; he is for cutting off the right Hand, Lusts of Profit, and for pulling out the right Eye, Lusts of Pleasure: The unsound Soul is, like Saul, for sparing some of the Fat of the Cattle, and Agag the King, I mean his chief and beloved Lusts; but a sincere Christian is for yielding up all to the Sword of the Spirit.
7. Common Illuminations are a Man's Torment and Affliction, and fain he would be eased and freed of them, and of the smart thereby; but the special ones tend to make a Man fear that he is not troubled enough, he would be searched thorowly: Search me, 1and know my Heart; try me, and know my Thoughts; see if there be any evil Way in me. O lance my Soul, Lord lay open my Sore, let me not be slightly healed: The one would fain shake the Trouble off, he thinks it is enough, nay, too much; the other would have it lie faster on: O let not my Sore be skinned over. The Devils cried, Why dost thou torment us before the Time? So unsound Persons would not be tormented; but Conscience hath got hold of them, and they cannot get out of its Hand. But one truly enlightned, saith, with David, I will be sorry for my Sin; I chuse it, I desire it: The one desires to be freed from the Effects of Sin, from the Pain and Punishment thereof; but the other cries out to be delivered from the Sin, which is the Cause of all Pain and Punishment: The one is like the Swine, who likes not the Whip, yet loves the Mire; they like not the Lash of the Law, but hate to come under the Yoke of the Gospel: The one cries out for a Plaister to ease his Conscience, may be he is willing to let some Boughs and Twigs be lop'd off; but the other would have the Ax laid to the Root of the Tree; he would have the Body of Sin, as well as the Branches, to be destroyed; he is for cutting off the right Hand, Lusts of Profit, and for pulling out the right Eye, Lusts of Pleasure: The unsound Soul is, like Saul, for sparing some of the Fat of the Cattel, and Agag the King, I mean his chief and beloved Lusts; but a sincere Christian is for yielding up all to the Sword of the Spirit.