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My Calamity is even at the door, and all men in a little time will justify Gods dealing with me: The Wrath of God is kindled, and burns in me; it is impossible for you to imagine my torment, and this is but an Earnest penny of my Eternal Damnation. Said a godly man, this is a humbling dispensation that you are exercised under—A humbling dispensation, said he, do you call it? I tell you, it is an hardening dispensation, and I feel it to be so: Said his Friend, I hope there is mercy yet reserved for you; to whom he replied, I know I shall have such Mercy as the Damned have; I do highly justify God in his dealings with me—at another time, I once thought, said he, that there was a power in man, but now I find it otherwise, for I cannot Pray—I have no desire after any thing that is good; I cannot Repent. His Visitors asked him if they should Pray for him? he said, No, No. One said to him, the Learned Dr. Twist in his Vinditiae Gratiae consesseth there were Depths in the Controversy between the Calvinists and Arminians, yet he believed the Truth against the Arminians. Mr. Child replied, I thought I could have dived to the bottom of it by my parts, but I see I cannot; and then, and many other times said, I am broken in Judgment—One of his Visitors said, you are obliged to stoop to the Sovereignty of God; he replied, Oh I cannot! I would be above him! O that there should be an Eternal blessed Being, and I sure never to enjoy him; there shall be an Eternal Wrath and Punishment, and I sure to fall under it. I shall be an eternal Monument of the Wrath of God—Pride and Covetousness hath ruined me, it hath undone me; I have been too much influenced thereby: I have been a Hypocrite, I am so now: I seem to repent, I do not, I cannot repent: And walking to the end of the room, turned back with a very stern Countenance, and striking his Hand on his Breast, said, No Sir, I cannot pamper this Body, for God will have it made a remarkable Example to this Generation. He cried out against himself for charging those that hold the Doctrine of Personal-Election with Consequences beyond the Sense of their Minds or Principles; I have, said he, made this World my God, I have been guilty of Idolatry, I have been guilty of Pride, endeavouring to run every Man down in Dispute; I have endeavoured to shake the Cross off my Shoulders;

My Calamity is even at the door, and all men in a little time will justifie Gods dealing with me: The Wrath of God is kindled, and burns in me; it is impossible for you to imagin my torment, and this is but an Earnest penny of my Eternal Damnation. Said a godly man, this is a humbling dispensation that you are exercised under—A humbling dispensation, said he, do you call it? I tell you, it is an hardening dispensation, and I feel it to be so: Said his Friend, I hope there is mercy yet reserved for you; to whom he replyed, I know I shall have such Mercy as the Damned have; I do highly justifie God in his dealings with me—at another time, I once thought, said he, that there was a power in man, but now I find it otherwise, for I cannot Pray—I have no desire after any thing that is good; I cannot Repent. His Visitors asked him if they should Pray for him? he said, No, No. One said to him, the Learned Dr. Twist in his Vinditiae Gratiae consesseth there were Depths in the Controversie between the Calvinists and Arminians, yet he believed the Truth against the Arminians. Mr. Child replyed, I thought I could have dived to the bottom of it by my parts, but I see I cannot; and then, and many other times said, I am broken in Judgment—One of his Visitors said, you are obliged to stoop to the Soveraignty of God; he replyed, Oh I cannot! I would be above him! O that there should be an Eternal blessed Being, and I sure never to enjoy him; there shall be an Eternal Wrath and Punishment, and I sure to fall under it. I shall be an eternal Monument of the Wrath of God—Pride and Covetousness hath ruined me, it hath undone me; I have been too much influenced thereby: I have been a Hypocrite, I am so now: I seem to repent, I do not, I cannot repent: And walking to the end of the room, turned back with a very stern Countenance, and striking his Hand on his Breast, said, No Sir, I cannot pamper this Body, for God will have it made a remarkable Example to this Generation. He cryed out against himself for charging those that hold the Doctrine of Personal-Election with Consequences beyond the Sense of their Minds or Principles; I have, said he, made this World my God, I have been guilty of Idolatry, I have been guilty of Pride, endeavouring to run every Man down in Dispute; I have endeavoured to shake the Cross off my Shoulders;