Gods husbandry

Alack, I am (I will no longer be ignorant, or deny, or not heed it, that I am) an Hypocrite, I find I am not changed in heart, some sin I think too pleasant, or gainful, or needful to forsake; ⟨p. 44⟩some duty too hard or expencefull to perform; I never yet accustomed to take the pains of binding the law of wisdom upon the tables of mine heart; I never yet regarded to feel the power of Religion mortifying my most beloved lusts, and framing my very soul to newness: I never heretofore did feel and bewail mine hollowness; and therefore, Ah, it must no longer be gainsaid by me, I am an Hypocrite. In truth, brethren, you must needs do thus, or else ye shall for ever remain Hypocrites. Were it not better for thee thus to shame thy self before Christ, then to make him shame thee before the whole world at the last Judgement, or make thee shame thy self to no purpose, before many on thy death-bed? Every secret thing must be made open, every hidden thing must be brought to light. O now drag this corner-seeking, and light-shining vice into the open view, by a free and plain confession as thou hast been exhorted, that it may not at that day remain to be laid open to thine eternal confusion. If thou tellest me that thou hast bin long time a professor of religion, & hast long accounted thy self the child of God; & therefore if the matter be brought to that pass, that after all this while thou must be fain to take upon thee the name of an Hypocrite, thou canst not see any hope of ever being true. I answer thee, that this is a vain fear, with which Satan seeks to hinder thee from doing that that is absolutely needful to thy salvation: for this is one, and a principal cause that thou ⟨p. 45⟩wast never yet true, because thou wouldest never yet be made to see thy felse false. But remove this impediment (by the much persuaded confession I call for at thine hands) and whatsoever thou hast been, and how long soever thou shalt be made true; for God comes hither now in this his ordinance, to make thee true, if thou do not make thy self uncapable of truth, by refusing to acknowledge thy want of truth:

Alacke, I am (I will no longer be ignorant, or deny, or not heed it, that I am) an Hypocrite, I finde I am not changed in heart, some sinne I think too pleasant, or gainfull, or needfull to forsake; ⟨p. 44⟩