The last visitation

To those that die in the Lord. No doubt you will dye in him, having lived in him. I have answered you before. But I would not believe you in that case. The next day a friend of his being to go forth of town, asked him, whether he would have any thing with him, for he was to leave him, and knew not whether ever he should see him again here. Look to your calling, that it be as well inward as outward. He counselled another; To be stirring for the glory of God. ⟨p. 54⟩To one standing by, he said. […] am thinking. What? On a for• to get grace. Put your trust in God. So I do. I omit how, and tell you that with great patience▪ he continually submitted himself to advise in any means fo• his good: In putting his temporal estate in order; he deal• mercifully with his poorest debtors, yea, with some which might well pay it. His worthy patro• (for so he often called him) whom for honours sake I name, Sir Robert Harley, sent his man to him with some aurum potabile, together with a book which a Doctor had made in the praise thereof. Coming to him, and asking him how he did, Oh (said he) if it would please God that I might live with him. Anon after he •aid to one, I have been thinking of arguments by which I might ⟨p. 55⟩plead my cause with God, and I •ave found: But what if dying thus, […] should be judged an Apostate? Man is not the Judge at whose Tribunal you must stand or fall. There came in many of our chief Fellows. One of them requested him to make confession of his •aith willingly. But I would •hink of it first. Musing awhile, •e called them. Truly my heart •nd soul have been far lead, and deeply troubled with tentations and stings of conscience: but I thank God they are eased in good measure: Wherefore I desire that I be not branded with the note of a forlorn or Reprobate: Such questions, oppositions, and all tending thereto, I renounce: Now help me, and put me in mind. What do you think of your former doctrine? Most true: In it I have lived, and will dye; I have not