A treatise concerning the Lords Supper

I suffer much for my unjust dealing with men, but I suffer more for my unjust meddling with the Blood of Christ; I suffer much for my excessive use of provision at my own Table, for my Gluttony & Drunkenness, but I suffer more for abusing of the Body and Blood of Christ in the Lords Supper, when I was upon the Earth. Or suppose he had been an Hypocrite that is now in Hell for this so heinous crime, and should come and tell thee, When I was in thy capacity of life; when it was my time to live where thou now dost, I was admitted to the Lords Supper, a• now thou art, and I gave as good an account unto the Minister (as to words and expressions) as thou hast done; I told him I was convinced of my lost estate, that I was weary of sin, and grieved for it, and was willing to accept of Christ upon his Gospel-terms▪ and this I said with tears in my eyes; that the Minister thought my Condition good, but I deceived him and my self too, by lying to him; for now I find I was not willing to let such a particular lust go, that parted betwixt me and ⟨p. 70⟩Christ: And the Congregation with whom I did receive, did think my condition to be good, because they saw me weep when I took the Bread, and saw my tears run down my cheeks when I took the Wine, but they did not see the Hypocrisy of my heart, nor the sin I did indulge, and would not part with at Christs command: But now I am under the sentence of damnation, and have suffered more than thou canst conceive for this my sin; Oh, I am damned, for the abusing of that Blood that should have saved me! I am for ever damned for dabbling in that Blood as an unholy thing, in which I was often entreated to have had my heart been washed: It is dreadful, dreadful, dreadful! Thou dost not know that yet art upon the Earth, what a dreadful thing it is to lye in Hell, and bear the punishment that is inflicted upon unworthy Receivers. After such an admonition as this from a damned Soul, what preparations wouldst thou make; why, the Ministers of God do tell thee so, and why wilt thou not credit our Doctrine as much as the words of a damned Soul! Nay, God himself doth tell thee plainly in his Word the greatness of this sin, and the punishment thereof, and wilt thou not believe the true eternal God before a damned Reprobate?

I suffer much for my unjust dealing with men, but I suffer more for my unjust medling with the Blood of Christ; I suffer much for my excessive use of provision at my own Table, for my Gluttony & Drunkenness, but I suffer more for abusing of the Body and Blood of Christ in the Lords Supper, when I was upon the Earth. Or suppose he had been an Hypocrite that is now in Hell for this so hainous crime, and should come and tell thee, When I was in thy capacity of life; when it was my time to live where thou now dost, I was admitted to the Lords Supper, a now thou art, and I gave as good an account unto the Minister (as to words and expressions) as thou hast done; I told him I was convinced of my lost estate, that I was weary of sin, and grieved for it, and was willing to accept of Christ upon his Gospel-terms and this I said with tears in my eyes; that the Minister thought my Condition good, but I deceived him and my self too, by lying to him; for now I find I was not willing to let such a particular lust go, that parted betwixt me and