Quest. 5. Once more enquire of thy self, and say, Have I repented of my Sins that I have committed against the Lord, and am I truly humbled for the same? For how shall I behold my Saviour broken for my sins, if my heart was never broken for my sins? Though I do come short of that degree of brokenness of heart for sin, as some of God's People have attained unto, yet have I that repentance which will prove repentance unto life? Though my •ears are not so many as my sins, nor my sorrow as great as my transgressions, yet have I so much sight and sense of sin, as makes me loath my self, and abhor my sins, and willing to forsake them; and separates me from the love of them, & delight in them: Oh my Conscience, canst thou not bear me witness, that it is the breaking of my heart that ⟨p. 90⟩I have broken Gods Commands; that my mourning proceeds from love, and a sense of Gods kindness and his goodness to me; that […] is my unfeigned desire to be washed from th• filth, as well as delivered from the guilt of sin▪ to be freed from the power and dominion, […] well as from the punishment and damnation that is due unto me for my sins; that though I did not know but Hell might be my portion, yet I would not sin against the Lord▪ Canst thou not bear me witness, that I do endeavour (though I come short in my endeavours) to keep my self unspotted from the World▪ and that I ha•e the Garments spotted with the flesh? That sin in the Temptation t• it, is grievous to me, as well as after the Commission of it: that I do groan (though not so much as I should) under this body of sin longing for the time when I shall be delivered from it; crying out in the bitterness of my Soul, Lord; when shall it be? Lord, when shall it be, that I shall be perfectly freed from this loathsome body of sin, which (through thy Grace) is so offensive to my Soul? if so, then I will arise, and approach unto this Ordinance, where I may be assured of my pardon, and be furnished with further Strength and Power against my Sin. Thus thou shouldest enquire, whether thou hast repented of thy sin, when thou art to go and see what hath been done unto thy Lord, by reason o• thy Sins▪ Thus far for Trial.
Quest. 5. Once more enquire of thy self, and say, Have I repented of my Sins that I have committed against the Lord, and am I truly humbled for the same? For how shall I behold my Saviour broken for my sins, if my heart was never broken for my sins? Though I do come short of that degree of brokenness of heart for sin, as some of God's People have attained unto, yet have I that repentance which will prove repentance unto life? Though my •ears are not so many as my sins, nor my sorrow as great as my transgressions, yet have I so much sight and sense of sin, as makes me loath my self, and abhor my sins, and willing to forsake them; and separates me from the love of them, & delight in them: Oh my Conscience, canst thou not bear me witness, that it is the breaking of my heart that ⟨p. 90⟩I have broken Gods Commands; that my mourning proceeds from love, and a sense of Gods kindness and his goodness to me; that 〈…〉 is my unfeigned desire to be washed from th• filth, as well as delivered from the guilt of sin▪ to be freed from the power and dominion, 〈…〉 well as from the punishment and damnation that is due unto me for my sins; that though I did not know but Hell might be my portion, yet I would not sin against the Lord▪ Canst thou not bear me witness, that I do endeavour (though I come short in my endeavours) to keep my self unspotted from the World▪ and that I ha•e the Garments spotted with the flesh? That sin in the Temptation t• it, is grievous to me, as well as after the Commission of it: that I do groan (though not so much as I should) under this body of sin longing for the time when I shall be delivered from it; crying out in the bitterness of my Soul, Lord; when shall it be? Lord, when shall it be, that I shall be perfectly freed from this loathsome body of sin, which (through thy Grace) is so offensive to my Soul? if so, then I will arise, and approach unto this Ordinance, where I may be assured of my pardon, and be furnished with further Strength and Power against my Sin. Thus thou shouldest enquire, whether thou hast repented of thy sin, when thou art to go and see what hath been done unto thy Lord, by reason o• thy Sins▪ Thus far for Tryal.
