A treatise concerning the Lords Supper

Thirdly, Then next proceed to solemn, s••rious, fervent Prayer, and make thine Addresse• to thy God: For all that thou canst think upon, and all the course that thou canst take, will not affect thine heart, except the God o• Heaven shall work▪ them on thy heart, and cause them to make some Impression on thy Soul: Then go to God, and say, O Lord, I am ashamed to think how dully I do think of these great affecting things: With what an hard and stupid heart I roll over in my mind the Death & Sufferings of thy Son: O Lord, it is time that I should come to thee, that I might have some warmth from thee, that I might he inflamed with love; and wer• it possible, might be turned into love, that I might be made up all of Love. O Lord, I have been trying to get my heart affected ⟨p. 101⟩with the Death of Ch••st, and with thy love and his manifested unto my Soul therein; but, Lord, my heart is dull: And sometime when the Coal begins to glow, it is covered with ashes before I am aware, It is too great a work for me to raise my heart to him who condescended to come down for me; if I could, I would Lord, I would, but cannot: but this I know, that if thou wilt, thou canst: Yea, Lord, I do believe that both thou canst, and wilt; and therefore it is that I am come to thee, O Lord, the time draws near in which I am to go unto thy Table, but shall the time of receiving come, before thou comest into my heart, to stir up thy graces in me, that I may be fitted to receive? True, Lord, I am unworthy, altogether unworthy of what I do desire; but what thou dost to any, it is not because they be worthy, but because it pleaseth thee to do for thine, what they ask of thee according to thy will: I am vile, I am vile, O Lord, I am exceeding vile; but if thou wilt clothe me with the righteousness of thy Son, and look upon me through his wounds, then thou wilt love me. Remember not my sins against thee, but remember what thy Son hath done and suffered for me; thou commandest me in the Sacrament to remember what thy Son hath suffered that I may be thankful unto thee; do thou remember what thy Son hath suffered, & be thou gracious unto me: that I might see thy smiles, and perceive thy love, when I am there;