Parentator. Memoirs of remarkables in the life and the death of the ever-memorable Dr.…

But in the midst of his greatest Obtenebrations, he still discovered such an Holy Solicitude, that he might not in any thing Dishonour the Glorious GOD, nor lose his Hold of the Blessed JESUS, and such an Holy Resolution to stand by the Choice which he had made Seventy Years before, and which above all things he did now with unspeakable Consolation look back upon; as were indeed Preferable to those Joys of Impulse that some are Transported withal. The best Judges of Things have agreed in this Judgment; That going to Heaven in the way of Repentance, is much safer and surer than going in the way of Ecstasy. After all, tis to be declared, That the Doctor often saw the Scattering of these Accidental Clouds, and we saw him Rejoicing in the Hope of that Glory of GOD, which they were to Prepare him for. He not only very often said, ⟨p. 209⟩The Infinite Mercy in GOD, and the Infinite Merit in CHRIST, keeps me above all Discouragement: But he kept continually feeding, on those Words of our SAVIOUR, Where I am, there shall my Servant be: upon which he would add, CHRIST is in Heaven; and if I am a Servant of His (which I am sure I am,) then I shall be There! In this Time, his Complaints, That he was laid by, and now did no good, were more Frequent and more Grievous, than any that we heard from him about any of his Complicated Maladies: And he would say, For what Sin is the Holy One thus Chastising me! I have Examined myself, and I can't find what it is! Yea, in a deep Abyss of Humility, there was utterly Absorbed with him all Sense of his ever having done any good at all in the World. He chose to Forget all, to Renounce all, and cry out, as he did numberless Times, Lord JESUS, I will make mention of thy Righteousness, even of thine only. And he would often have the Seventy First PSALM read unto him. He still expressed his Delight in Prayer, and would call for much of it: scarce let me Leave him without something of it. If he were asked what he would have us Pray for, he often Answered, That I may do Good while I Live, & that I may Honour CHRIST in my Death. One Day telling him, that his Excellent Friend Mr. Thomas Hollis in his Letters to me, was Inquisitive whether he were yet in the Land of the Living; He replied, No, Tell him, I am going to it; This Poor World is the Land of the Dying; Tis Heaven that is the true Land of the Living!

But in the midst of his greatest Obtenebrations, he still discovered such an Holy Sollicitude, that he might not in any thing Dishonour the Glorious GOD, nor lose his Hold of the Blessed JESUS, and such an Holy Resolution to stand by the Choice which he had made Seventy Years before, and which above all things he did now with unspeakable Consolation look back upon; as were indeed Preferrible to those Joys of Impulse that some are Transported withal. The best Judges of Things have agreed in this Judgment; That going to Heaven in the way of Repentance, is much safer and surer than going in the way of Extasy. After all, tis to be declared, That the Doctor often saw the Scattering of these Accidental Clouds, and we saw him Rejoicing in the Hope of that Glory of GOD, which they were to Praepare him for. He not only very often said,