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She had great Longings to die, that she might be with Christ; which increased 'till she thought she did not know how to be patient to wait till God's time should come. But once when she felt those Longings, she thought with herself, If I long to die, why do I go to Physicians? Whence she concluded that her Longings for Death were not well regulated After this she often put it to herself, which she should choose, whether to live or to die, to be sick, or to be well; and she found she could not tell, till at last she found herself disposed to say these Words; I am quite willing to live, and quite willing to die; quite willing to be sick, and quite willing to be well; and quite willing for any thing that God will bring upon me! And then, said she, I felt my self perfectly easy, in a full Submission to the Will of God. She then lamented much, that she had been so eager in her Longings for Death, as it argued want of such a Resignation to God, as ought to be. She seemed henceforward to continue in this resigned Frame till Death.

She had great Longings to die, that she might be with Christ; which increased 'till she thought she did not know how to be patient to wait till God's time should come. But once when she felt those Longings, she thought with herself, If I long to die, why do I go to Physicians? Whence she concluded that her Longings for Death were not well regulated After this she often put it to herself, which she should choose, whether to live or to die, to be sick, or to be well; and she found she could not tell, till at last she found herself disposed to say these Words; I am quite willing to live, and quite willing to die; quite willing to be sick, and quite willing to be well; and quite willing for any thing that God will bring upon me! And then, said she, I felt my self perfectly easy, in a full Submission to the Will of God. She then lamented much, that she had been so eager in her Longings for Death, as it argued want of such a Resignation to God, as ought to be. She seem'd henceforward to continue in this resigned Frame till Death.

After this her Illness increased upon her: and once after she had before spent the greater Part of the Night in extreme Pain, she waked out of a little sleep with these Words in her Heart and Mouth; I am willing to suffer for Christ's sake, I am willing to spend and be spent for Christ's sake; I am willing to spend my Life, even my very Life for Christ's sake! And tho' she had an extraordinary Resignation, with respect to Life or Death, yet the Thoughts of Dying were exceeding sweet to her. At a time when her Brother was reading in Job, concerning Worms feeding on the dead Body, she appeared with a pleasant Smile; and being enquired of about it, she said, it was sweet to her to think of her being in such Circumstances. At another time, when her Brother mentioned to her the Danger there seemed to be that the Illness she then laboured under, might be an Occasion of her Death, it filled her with Joy that almost overcame her. At another time, when she met a Company following a