2. When Christ breaks the bonds wherewith poor Captives were held, he also breaketh their hearts that they have been kept and held thereby in the service of Satan and sin, from God and Christ so long. As the eye doth see and weep, so the heart doth consider, and bleed, and grieve at the remembrance of his former folly and sin. Oh what did I do to sin against this blessed, gracious, merciful God! Oh what did I mean so long to stop mine ears against all ⟨p. 200⟩the calls, and wooings, and entreatings of this Lord-Redeemer, who was so kind to suffer, bleed, and dye for such a wretch as I, for such a wretch as I, for such a rebellious, disobedient, and delaying wretch as I. Oh there is no love like his, there is no mercy like to his, there is no kindness like to his! Oh why did I slight him so much, so long, so very much, so very long as I have done! Oh what a fool was I, to prefer the world, the pleasures and the profits of the world, before this blessed Redeemer! Oh what a beast was I, to prefer my very lusts and sins, and the service of the Devil, before this glorious, gracious Saviour, and the serving of him that died to deliver me from my bondage! O Lord I am grieved that ever I did so; it is the burden and the breaking of my heart that ever I did so; Oh now I could wash my self in tears at the remembrance of my folly and my madness! but if I should, that will not wash me from my guilt, and from my filth; and because that would not do, this blessed Saviour shed his blood for the cleansing of me from my guilt and my pollution. I weep but not enough; my heart is troubled, but not enough, my Soul is humbled within me, but not enough, for so great rebellion against, and slighting of this Lord Redeemer. But I am troubled ⟨p. 201⟩because I am no more troubled; Lord I grieve, because my heart is yet so hard, and can grieve no more; my sin is bitter unto me now, which once was sweet and pleasant to my Soul.
2. When Christ breaks the bonds wherewith poor Captives were held, he also breaketh their hearts that they have been kept and held thereby in the service of Satan and sin, from God and Christ so long. As the eye doth see and weep, so the heart doth consider, and bleed, and grieve at the remembrance of his former folly and sin. Oh what did I do to sin against this blessed, gracious, merciful God! Oh what did I mean so long to stop mine ears against all ⟨p. 200⟩the calls, and wooings, and intreatings of this Lord-Redeemer, who was so kind to suffer, bleed, and dye for such a wretch as I, for such a wretch as I, for such a rebellious, disobedient, and delaying wretch as I. Oh there is no love like his, there is no mercy like to his, there is no kindness like to his! Oh why did I slight him so much, so long, so very much, so very long as I have done! Oh what a fool was I, to prefer the world, the pleasures and the profits of the world, before this blessed Redeemer! Oh what a beast was I, to prefer my very lusts and sins, and the service of the Devil, before this glorious, gracious Saviour, and the serving of him that died to deliver me from my bondage! O Lord I am grieved that ever I did so; it is the burden and the breaking of my heart that ever I did so; Oh now I could wash my self in tears at the remembrance of my folly and my madness! but if I should, that will not wash me from my guilt, and from my filth; and because that would not do, this blessed Saviour shed his blood for the cleansing of me from my guilt and my pollution. I weep but not enough; my heart is troubled, but not enough, my Soul is humbled within me, but not enough, for so great rebellion against, and slighting of this Lord Redeemer. But I am troubled ⟨p. 201⟩because I am no more troubled; Lord I grieve, because my heart is yet so hard, and can grieve no more; my sin is bitter unto me now, which once was sweet and pleasant to my Soul.
