Some select cases resolved. Specially, tending to the right ordering of the heart, that…

July 9. Being suddenly surprised by a Sin before the Sacrament, my Conscience was awakened, and my Heart checked me for it. Yet the Lord turned the Meditation of the Evil of this Sin to great Good to me; viz, Not only to set my Heart against it and all other Sins, but the Lord thereby let in a most glorious Light (as I thought) of his Gospel and of the Way of Believing for Pardon, more than ever I had: which was this;

July 9. Being suddenly surprized by a Sin before the Sacrament, my Conscience was awakened, and my Heart checkt me for it. Yet the Lord turned the Meditation of the Evil of this Sin to great Good to me; viz, Not only to set my Heart against it and all other Sins, but the Lord thereby let in a most glorious Light (as I thought) of his Gospel and of the Way of Believing for Pardon, more than ever I had: which was this;

I saw that the Nature and Practice of a Man awakened with Sin was this, viz. when Conscience smites him with the Fear and Terror of God, Dost think God loves thee, or hath sanctified thee, who dost rush upon such Evils again and again? No, he is angry with thee for thy Sin. Hereupon the Heart being desirous of Favour thinks secretly thus; As Sin hath provoked God's Anger, so, he being merciful, I hope the leaving off my Sin and turning from my Sin will pacify and please the Lord again; and so doth ⟨p. 32⟩secretly think to please God and pacify God, and so indeed to satisfy God for that Sin, and so forsakes Sin. And now in Time of Sickness, or Horror thinks, that the Lord is pacified and pleased with this, according as some Scriptures seem to speak. Or else it secretly thinks, Faith in Christ's Blood and Turning from Sin also, both together do please, and that now all is quiet. Hereupon, remembering that Christ's Blood apprehended by Faith was the only Atonement, I conceived this was not the Way that I should walk in; but rather this:

I saw that the Nature and Practice of a Man awakened with Sin was this, viz. when Conscience smites him with the Fear and Terror of God, Dost think God loves thee, or hath sanctified thee, who dost rush upon such Evils again and again? No, he is angry with thee for thy Sin. Hereupon the Heart being desirous of Favour thinks secretly thus; As Sin hath provoked God's Anger, so, he being merciful, I hope the leaving off my Sin and turning from my Sin will pacify and please the Lord again; and so doth