Some select cases resolved. Specially, tending to the right ordering of the heart, that…

July 23. At Charlestown-Lecture, I hearing out of John 17.21. That Disunion and Sitting loose from Christ and his People was a Means to hide, and did, as it were, deny that Christ was come as sent of the Father. My Heart was hence much affected with shame and secret Sorrow, purposing to cleave closer to Christ that only Christ might be seen in me.

As I was riding to the Sermon that Day, my Heart began to be much disquieted by seeing almost all Men's Souls and Estates out of Order, and many Evils in Mens Hearts, Lives, Courses. Hereupon my Heart began to withdraw it self from my Brethren and others: But I had it secretly suggested to me, that Christ, when he saw Evils in any, he sought to amend them, did not presently withdraw from them, nor was not perplexed and vexed only with them. And so I considered, if I had Christ's Spirit in me, I should do so. And when I saw that the Lord had thus overcome my Reasonings and visited me I blessed his Name. I saw also, the ⟨p. 40⟩Night before this, that a Child of God in his Solitariness did wrestle against Temptations, and so overcome his Discontent, Pride and Passion: Another did reason and so wrestle for his Temptation of Discontent &c, and was overcome. Jonah indeed did reason for his Passion for a Time; but the Lord overcame his Spirit.

As I was riding to the Sermon that Day, my Heart began to be much disquieted by seeing almost all Men's Souls and Estates out of Order, and many Evils in Mens Hearts, Lives, Courses. Hereupon my Heart began to withdraw it self from my Brethren and others: But I had it secretly suggested to me, that Christ, when he saw Evils in any, he sought to amend them, did not presently withdraw from them, nor was not perplexed and vexed only with them. And so I considered, if I had Christ's Spirit in me, I should do so. And when I saw that the Lord had thus overcome my Reasonings and visited me I bless'd his Name. I saw also, the ⟨p. 40⟩