Indian dialogues for their instruction in that great service of Christ, in calling home…

Keit. I Have now lived one Sabbath: many a Sabbath have I been dead, and followed works of darkness and sin, when I should •ave been following the Lord in such ways of Worship, as yesterday was spent in. I am wounded at my heart to remember what I have done upon the Sabbath-day, I •ave served the Devil, and lust and sins of all sorts, even upon the Sabbath-days▪ The sins that I have committed do render me vile in the sight of God, and the time wherein I have committed m•ny of them, doth render me more vile in the eyes of the L•rd my Judge. You said yesterday, that Christ Jesus is the Lord of the Sabbath, and requires all men to spend that day in his service; and when Christ Jesus shall judge the world, he will examine all men how they spent every Sabbath. Oh wretched man that I am, what answer shall I make, though I am a Sachem here on earth, I s•all be but a subject in the day of Judgement. I now sit upon the Bench to judge others, then I must stand at the Bar to be judged my self. Oh what mountains of sin have I heaped up in my wicked life! I had forgot my sins, and I thought God had forgot them too; and I had thought my Conscience had forgot them also, but now I see it is not so. God hath numbered all my ways, my thoughts, my words and works, and I feel now that my Conscience remembereth them also, though it hath been asleep in the times of my ignorance and profaneness. Oh I am a wretch: I should have been an example to my people, an example of virtue, of wisdom and of praying to God, but I have done quite contrary to my duty: I have been an example of lust, of profaneness, yea of all sin; and in particular of this great sin of profaning the Sabbath: my heart is wounded with the sense of this •in especially, and that forceth my troubled Conscience to gall and afflict my soul with the remembrance of all my sins. But why say I all? I now find my sins are numberless: my own personal sins are many, great and vile, my heart doth loath my self to remember them, they make me an abhorring to God. But moreover and besides my own personal sins, other mens sins I am guilty of; Oh how many have sinned upon my account, many ways? I am a Sachem over my people, to rule them in virtue, and to do them good: but I have done contrary ⟨p. 69⟩